Ivor Perl BEM, born in Makó, Hungary, survived Auschwitz, Kaufering & Dachau camps:

I was only 12 when I was taken to Auschwitz. I feel very, very hurt that I haven’t got many memories of my family. I think I've only got three photos. Painful.

I'd give my children a hug when they were leaving for school: 'Give me a kiss, have a nice day'. But people living in that part of the world at that part of the time had couldn't afford that luxury. The antisemitism was constant. Growing up I accepted being called a dirty Jew."

Ivor was 7th out of 9 siblings.

My brother Alec was the only other one who survived. He was two years older than me. We went together to Auschwitz & survived together.

He looked after me. He saved me from the gas oven twice, literally. I was in the gate of hell when he saved me.

When the Germans overthrew the Hungarian government [1944], from the following morning, edicts started coming out against the Jews, gradually. Jews mustn’t marry non-Jewish people. You must be home by 7. You mustn’t go from a certain street.

Gradual, gradual, until the noose.

We used to play football with non-Jewish friends. Those same boys, when the time came for us to be herded into Szeged ghetto, they were ones that herded us there.

After the war my brother spoke to those boys we used to play with. He said, how could you do that to us?

They said: Well, we didn't know what was happening. All we were told along was the equivalent of the Boy Scouts. The sergeant used to come along: tomorrow, turn up with a stick & we’ll give you ten shillings.

And they turned up & their job was to herd us into the ghetto.

My father & two other brothers were sent to the labour battalion & then to Auschwitz. One day in Auschwitz, my brother & I were walking along & he said to me: our father is here. I said: how comes?

We used to have roll calls every morning & one day my father didn't come back. We've got the date of his sort of passing away but not the when or why, I've got no idea.

As a young boy, you never realise the severity of it all. To show you how it was: when I first went on the cattle truck I laid down on the floor and could see the trains running from the railway lines, clickety-click, click, & I said to myself: Oh, wow, isn't this an adventurous journey?

My oldest brother David was a rabbi at 21. When he went to Auschwitz, I heard later on that he worked in a Sonderkommando. Have you heard of that?

What happened: people used to arrive at Auschwitz & be segregated. Those that could work were put to one side, those who were not just went to the gas chamber. But what happened after the gas chamber? Who took the dead bodies from the gas chamber to the crematoria? The slaves. The Sonnderkommando.

But the Sonnderkommando were not allowed to live more than 4 weeks. Every 4 weeks, they themselves were put in a gas oven. I mean. Can you imagine?

I wrote a book. My wife said: why don't you do something useful? You’ve got a computer, nobody knows your life story, including your children, write your life story instead of wasting your time.

So I sat down at the computer for half an hour, not knowing what to write. As I started typing, suddenly it all came out.

I was 50. Until then I lived a life of denial. I thought the best way forward for me, get up from the dust, dust myself down, try not to think too much about the past because I didn't want to hurt the children or the wife.

But afterwards the children kept on telling us, why didn't you tell us about it?

We said: Because we didn't want to hurt you.

They said: they didn't ask us because they didn't want to hurt us. But we didn't have the luxury of therapy in those days.

Was it the right way to go about it? I don't know. I don't know.

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